If I were to make a list of the best characters I’ve ever written, Einar (Kenna) would be at the top. When I saw that this month’s list of questions was deeply introspective, I knew March was Einar’s month. I was going to post a picture of him, but instead I decided to link you to a sort of trailer-slash-fanvid I made a few months ago for inspiration.
1. What is their secret desire? Secretly, Einar wishes he could re-unite with his wife and children in the afterlife; but he exchanges this desire in order to protect and raise Kenna. He has never regretted this decision.
2. What is the best and brightest moment they experience during the story? Einar is a man who takes his duty seriously, but has also developed an edge – almost a taste – for killing, though he never kills needlessly. He knows his own flaws and limitations. He has many ‘bright’ moments as the backbone of the story, but to tell those now would be spoiling!
3. What are the emotional places your characters are afraid to go to? Einar does not live in the past, but he holds it close. He does not let the past frighten him, or so he thinks; but it influences his decisions toward Kenna and the thought of truly releasing her ‘into the wild,’ as it were, is something that he greatly fears.
4. Is there a place/city/room where they will never go? Why? For Einar there is no such place; even if he would prefer not to re-visit a traumatic memory, he would march into the jaws of death if he had to.
5. If they were permanently leaving town, what would they easily throw out? What would they refuse to part with? (Why?) Einar would bring Kenna; everything else is secondary. If possible, he would also bring his weapons; but he has few worldly possessions and he likes it that way.
6. What do they want (consciously and tangibly)? More than anything, Einar wishes to see Kenna safe and happy. While he is extremely calm, this would give him true peace.
7. On the other hand: what do they need (on the emotional, subconscious level)? He needs space and time to himself, but not too distant from those he cares about – he must be close enough to keep an eye on them. As long as he has his own thoughts, he doesn’t feel he needs much.
8. If they could change one thing about themselves, what would it be? He has reached the point where he would very much like mortality; but he views actual attempts to ‘relieve yourself of the burden of living’ as something cowardly and not worth considering. If he were honest with himself, he would like to be able to see the world with new, unjaded eyes. In a small way, this is one reason why Kenna lights his life – she gives him a fresh view.
9. What is the most humiliating event of their life? The realization that he and the rest of the elvish warriors were tricked into leaving their families at the hands of the enemy. None of them have ever recovered.
10. What things do they turn to when they need a bit of hope? Einar needs only to look at Kenna to have his spirit rekindled. He calls her the light of his life, and as elves abhor lying, he means it in the deepest, purest sense.
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